CLICK HERE FOR MY NEW BLOG :)

It's the same 'heartsonlockdown' in case your memory is very bad lol. So you just have to remember its blogspot and not xanga anymore  And since I can't access xanga and livejournal in China,

EVERYONE GO MOVE BACK TO BLOGGER WOOHOO!

For my convenience HAHAHAHA if not Lisa Koh can't read your blog lor  So yes I'm promoting blogger on my xanga (sorry Xanga ppl ) go go go!   Okay we have come to the end of my last xanga post  Thank you Cynthia for posting this for me

And I ask you, what's the point of making promises when you're just going to break them?

Today was a baaaad second last day lol I was dying of cramps so I went home :) Came to school alright, shared my double chocolate chip cookie with Jaime :D Canteen with Diandra and Fangying... I THINK RACHEL MAY BE COMING TO SCHOOL EARLY TOMORROW (: (: (:

Chinese was boring lol don't rmb anything that happened. Then english was torturous because the cramps came :'( But I think our presentation was goooooooood stuff :) Hehe was dying until recess because of my cramps and everyone was telling me to sit down but I didn't want to because then I wouldn't be able to get up :'( Stood doubled over for the rest of the period. Then Wendi came and I think I must have looked preeeettttyy stupid hahaha but nvm the pain was damn bad okay! Read her letter and cried nehx :') Because I was touched, not because of the pain! Ok maybe abit bcos of the pain. ABIT :( Pamela gave me panadol BUT IT WAS NOT WORKING >:( Thx for the panadol though :)

Went for recess but I was still dying and frozen too bcos of the cold weather & stuff. Felt rly sick so Grace, Laura and Valerie brought me to the general office. Mrs Tan signed my leave school form and then I was sleeping in the general office with a hot water bag bottle thing lol. All the teachers came in and were like "WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU!" then talk so much aiya ppl trying to sleep can :'( But I felt their concern :') Mommy came and I went home to bathe and sleep :) Threw up (WASTED MY COOKIE LOR) and then suddenly I was okay LOL maybe the panadol rly was expired like Grace and Valerie thought lol ok no la kidding :)

Read "The Last Lecture" by Randy Pausch which is really inspiring :') BUT IT'S DAMN SAD OMG :( Ok I tell you it's about this guy who's at the last stage of pancreatic cancer and actually the story is very long so I'm lazy to type it out lol but you should rly go read it! You'll be inspired ok :) So yeah I spent 2 hours reading that while waiting for Pet (supposed to have early dinner but it's already nearly 7) and now I'm finishing lol. Then after this, I shall attempt to conquer A Long Walk To Freedom by Nelson Mandela bcos it's supposed to be inspiring too but it's kinda boring lol no offence :( Aiyah I very tired of waiting making my cramps come back >:( Shall go back to reading bye :) Ps I luv playing with my new ipod heehee damn fun! :D But my fingers too fat to type properly :(

Fav people ever :)

BBF :)

Starb :)

Pet :)

Valerie, Grace & Laura :)

Rachel :)

Diandra :)

Shipei :)

Sheryl & Cheryl :)

Jaime Hong :)

Clique :)

Sec 1 Netballers 07 / Sec 2 Netballers 08 :)

Netball Team 08/09 ( minus Lisa in 09 :( ) :)

Netball Team 07/08 :)

1/1 07 / 2/1 08 :)

Thanks for making a difference (a good difference) in my life :')
Dedications up sooony :') Writing everyone's letters now :)

Please, just stop trying and spare me the disappointment.
There's no point being sorry if you're not gonna do anything about it.

OMG.

I AM SO x100000000000000 EXCITED FOR GOSSIP GIRL SEASON 2!

1st September 1st September 1st September 1st September AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH SEASON 2 COME FASTER!!! I am so so so so so freaking excited for Gossip Girl hehehe and after Gossip Girl is new season of One Tree Hill! :D Ahhh  I want Nate and Serena to get together! Hahaha Vanessa doesn't deserve Nate lor >:( (I do! Hahaha ok no la kidding) And Chuck pisses me off! He and Blair already okay lor then he left Blair to take the plane ride alone with some random dude while he hooked up with the random woman at his house >:( Still H8 Jenny lol. And no one cares about Dan and Vanessa :) Ok at least I don't. OMGGGGGG I WANT TO SEE GOSSIP GIRL SEASON 2 NOW!!! Ok byebye I'm done ranting about gg :)

Today was a sad sad sad day, hahaha I think the whole moving to China thing is finally catching up with me. Felt like crying twice, once when someone told me something and another when I was writing a letter to someone. Emo sia :( But today was funny too lol I  the ppl sitting around me (Ashley, Cynthia, Shipei, Yunlu) :) Most memorable part of the day was when I accidentally tattooed myself PERMANENTLY (general idea of a tattoo) and now I can't get the "tattoo" off LOL.

Ok come I tell you my loser story :] Yesterday during chinese, I was fascinating myself with my newly found long nails (I can't bite my nails anymore now that I've got braces) so I was scratching stuff into my arm (and this time I wasn't pretending to be emo like xxxxx lol) but I underestimated my nails and my skin got scratched off :( So it became swollen lol and the shape of what I scratched was like raised (!?!?!). And that was rly ugly so I drew a pink heart over it :] And then it didn't come off when I bathed at night but I thought cos I never scrub. But today when I decided to scrub it off, IT WOULDN'T COME OFF!!!!!!!!! It's like stuck in the shape of what I scratched yesterday lol so now my arm is possibly permanently (hopefully not) pink :'( It's like the pink pigment stuff is stuck under my skin wtf LOL so yunlu was trying to scratch it off with her pencils and rulers but it got too ticklish hahahaha. Then she tried erasing it but it wasn't working :'(

So now I'm stuck with a pink "tattoo" on my hand lolly :( Ok not funny at all bcos I might be scarred for life! LITERALLY! I must stop this insane fascination with my nails :( But nvm hahaha didn't present for english LUCKILY bcos we had no script thanks to lazy Lisa HAHAHA (alliteration!). PE was fun too! Took part in our very own Olympics LOL we played badminton where we were Lin Dan and Lee Chong Wei and Ronald Susilo then we played tennis where we were Roger Federer and Nadal (Sp?!?! Lol) and Sharapova and Serena/Venus Williams hehehe and then we played volleyball which Laura and I were damn pro at :D Went back to badminton and Laura and I broke the longest rally record woohoo! Which was 42 LOL. Grace and Valerie noobier than me :)

Got history papers back didn't get full marks so bye bye A2 lol I got a B4 >:( Missed B3 by one mark pissssss meeee offffff :( And JT didn't return our lit papers zzzzzz. I think I failed haha I didn't even answer the second part bcos I ran out of time & I couldn't concentrate cos I just found out that I failed HMT hah oh well. Don't rmb rest of the day. After school went to interchange with Laura and Pearlene (: Peed in the NICE TOILET :) Then bought subway and met family for lunch number 2. Went home to pack somemore which I haven't finished & I think I won't be doing math hw lol.

MY LAST 2 DAYS IN IJ AND IN SINGAPORE.
I will miss IJ.

THE MONDAY KWOK WAI SZE SIGHTING!

It's her right right right right right!

Todaaaay was a not so good day >:( Except lunch with Diandra :) :) :) Morning at the pole was lonely without Rachel :( Misssss you Rachel Wong come back soon so that we can spend our last few days together :)

Got back our maths marks! Quite happy with my graph marks except that I lost 1 mark because I'm a noobie who can't read my own graphs lol :( Home econs was our skit which was retarded even though I'mma kewl doctor B) Double english was spent doing our powerpoint which I just realised I haven't finished, damn ): Science was alright because Mrs Tan wasn't shouting. Chinese today was just presentations and some textbook stuff...

Went to the gallery steps for netball com results hahah also don't know why I went when I'm not even gonna be part of B'div 08/09 but I was curious! B'div captain's Lindsay, vice captains' Shipei and Wendi :) C'div captain's Fangying, vice captain's Kim. Congrats peeepz! :D Lunch with Diandra at Macs! :D Shared 20 nuggets LOL but I ate 12 because she couldn't finish her share :) But she ate before that okay! I'm not that pig :( Sherryn was showing us her chop omg damn cool it says her name and you can chop it on papers! SUPER COOL HAHAHAHA.

Talked with Diandra about alot of stuff & people, I feel good to have let out some of my pent up frustrations. Not that anything can be done about it, hahaha. But it's better that it's not bottled up inside of me. 3 days left and I'm losing hope, fast. Gonna give up soon because there's no time left which = it can't and won't get better in time. I had fun while we lasted though.

Thought about the friendships I've forged in IJ, & I realised that netball began and ended with Diandra. I guess it's one of the only friendships that managed to get through all the rough times, no matter how battered and torn up it seemed. I don't blame or resent anyone, or any other friendships I've made, but I suppose I just treasure this friendship a whole lot more, knowing that other friendships I had couldn't last this long.

Thanks for the dedication, Diandra. Love you long time!  (but cry for me leh you don't have to cry, you can just shed tears like Valerie LOL)

I'm gonna miss my friends.
Those that have been there for me recently at least.
And maybe those whom I just can't stop loving even if I don't mean anything to them.

I haven't even left, but you've already forgotten.
And perhaps it's already too late to tell you that I'm sorry and that I still love you.